Half day trip with him

Yay~~ TY yj for bringing me out ytd. Really glad that he actually wanted to bring me out. It was a fun and happy day for me. We went chinatown for lunch, then head to orchard cineleisure. We wanted to watch movie, but at the end we didn't.. we went to a shop and yum cha instead. Take a look at some pictures that we took at different places. Oh btw, do figure out what animal is it in the first picture. DOG? COW?

I bought a book "what color is your parachute 2009", its a very good book. I recommend you guys take a look at it. it's a motivational and inspiring fiction book. I'm having some strong desire for books now. Feel like changing my life. Make my life more meaningful and interesting.


Ok la. Its suppose to be a post for pictures that i took ytd. Hope you guys enjoy.

Love you, yj.

New Blog templates for Valentine

yeah.. Valentines day is coming soon. Are you ready for it?

I guess I'll be busy with projects and school stuff on that day. But I'll be still expecting some surprise from yj. *wink* - i'll neva forget the yellow rose that i received in year 1. *swt*

New blog skin for coming Valentine. It took me few hours to do it, with yj's help of course. He's the comp engine student. =D but he gave up half way tho.. It's not easy, so never mind lor. When I free then slowly change lor. =D


love you yj.

Belated New Year Post

24-7-09 Sunday

Today, I met with Hui yi at Ipoh Parade. She has become so stronger and mature than what I thought. I’m really glad that I met with her today, although it is just a short one.

We met at 5pm at starbucks. Lol, first thing that we talked about was my spendthrift. Lol , it was about my expenditure of 300SGD on espirt clothes. There were 2 shirts and 2 skirts. Glad huiyi talked abt it, it reminds me how spendthrift I am in the past, even when I was still a school girls. Still old friends know me well.

After that, we talked more abt our life, our social life. I was in tear. Can’t hold my emotion any longer. I begin to realize how long I have been hiding these feelings behind me, by trying not to think about it. When I talked to huiyi, I begin to realize how much I not supposed to hide it anymore. It’s been hard. Tears are so uncontrollable. I have to admit, I have hard time finding real friends in sg. I have a lot of friends, but not close ones. It’s been so hard to live on without one or few close friends live beside me, someone who willing to do same thing with me, as we call it “same channel”.

Have been through bad treatments by some friends in singapore, those who took advantage over you and haven’t been supportive in things you passion in. In fact, most of the time, you are just a tool for them. I’ve had enough discourages, harshness. Those days, I thought it was just my communication problem that causes all this poor treatments by so called “slightly closed” friends. Today after I talk to huiyi, I believed I deserved a better treatment from real friends. Not that I didn’t try, I just feel that one hand doesn’t clap loud. One way sincere friendship doesn’t work out.

Yeah, I appreciate to have yj beside me all these years, sharing my tears and happiness. But, I believed that few CLOSED friends beside you make you live stronger and bright up ur days. I’m not gonna hide anymore, I’ve been closing my socializing door just to avoid being someone whom I’m not. Instead trying my best to say no, I think still best I just faced the reality. Find friends who are sincere to be friends with me. At the same time, should just go further and make new friends. It is time to think that it’s not that bad to ignore the current friend circle around me. Take all the chance I have and meet more cool people. Find someone more trustworthy.

Thanks huiyi, sze yan & MK, who has accompany in the past, share my tears, happiness and troubles. It’s my honor to have cool friends like you gals. It’s gonna be hard for us to see each in the future but I will send you all my blessing from SG. =) Keep in touch. I love you all.

Happy CNY.

Spent too much..

Yes, I'm in troubled and frustration mood, it is all because I spent near 300 dollar today. I am really sad.

Here is a promise, for Yj and myself.

I shall not go shopping or dining at places with spending more than SGD10. I'm serious. Hereby authorize yj to remind me about this promise without angry him.

Arggh.. I really want to stop spending and find a part time job. Arggh!!!!! say NO to spending.

Slacker = me

With reference to the title, it is clear. lol. I'm honestly have to admit.

Yesterday was my first day back at school. It was Ok. As usual, nothing much to talk about except for the "female friend". Yea, I guess I'm having hard time with Fel. Maybe we just can't get along that well. Has been trying to avoid her. It's something hard to achieve.

Today, there was suppose to be a career talk from capitaland. I didn't go. Not in the mood plus I slept in. I spent whole day at home, early morning, made omelet for yj and then started to watch my gossip girls. Lol. Well, I just find that I'm really fat and can't wear nice clothes. I wish i have better shape tho.

Tomorrow I'm gonna go swimming. I swear. =)

Loveyou, yj.

Trip to Vivo

Well, went vivo with yj today. I've been few month never visit VivoCity. Thanks yj for bringing me today.

It suppose to be good and happy day, but it doesn't. At least I don't feel it right now. Anyway, it could me having too high expectation of yj. =/

I woke up late, about 10.30am. After shower and msn-ing, we went out at around 11.30am. We first went to marketplace downstairs and make our way to Vivo. Today, yj has been very ignorant. He either reply slow or never reply at all when I try to make conversation to him. It makes me feel like I'm talking to the wall.. or may be worse. I am really glad that we came out but not like going out with a piece of wood.

I have a feelings that he has a lot of stuff bothering him now in his mind. Well, it's not very often that we went out shopping and walk around. I bring up a topic that we shall go walk around singapore. You see, after staying here for 3 yrs plus, I have never visit the theme park, Wild Wild West. =/ He starting thinking about the money, the time.. etc etc, as if it is something very difficult to achieve. Seriously, I really think that we should walk around, expand your horizon while you still can. Apparently, yj always has a lot of concerns and burden. Hey hey, who doesn't??? think about it. yeah.. and he always has the good and logical reason to stop me wanting it.

Well, don't think we can go look around anyway. After buying movie tix, We went sushi tei, (yummy.. my favorite) had a meal for 32 dollar. we start talking about the issues that we have just now and we started to settle down. Sometime we need to tolerate each other and get a balance. It worked out perfectly and yeah, he is not wrong in his standing. So no point correcting something that's not wrong.

Subsequently after the movie, yj accompanied me to shop. Well, he always say he is fine when I ask how is him, but I know he isn't. His face always show. It could be me thinking too much and I really hope its just i think too much.

I like 2 jackets in espirit shop, but I didn't buy it. Reason being is too expensive. LOL. Maybe next time. Yj is disappointing today, no doubt. When i was trying clothes, he always dunno I'm out. Its really disappointing and that makes me think that he really have a lot stuff bothering him. May be i should just let loose. or maybe I shouldn't.. =/ I just hope he can be more focus on me when we go out together. It's really frustrating to have go out with a guy but his mind always wandered. How do you feel when you talked to him, he either not replying or slow reply? How do you feel when you come out from the fitting room, expecting him to be glad to see it, but he isn't and he does not respond? How do you feel when you wan to share something with him but he gave you the same emotionless face whole day?

For friends who are reading this post, don't be worry. I'm fine right now. Not angry and Not sad. If yj is reading this post, think about how you do better next time k.

Love you. yj.

a little updates

You probably can say I'm slacker. well, it has been three month since Sept.

Well, for the last sem, I've been working quite hard, taking 6 modules (hoping to graduates) Surprisingly, i got A- for my HR. Thanks to my fellow project groupmate, we worked hard for it. well.. i did pretty good job for the rest of module ( at least i think so) especially for my behavioral.. the final paper revision.. is quite last minute.

I went back to msia for Dec holiday, went Penang with yj and his family. it was cool.. love penang food, and the funny thing is .. i forgot to bring my wallet to penang for the 2 days trip. lol thanks to yj and his parents who pay for my bills. Penang food is realli good.. tasty and cheap. Hard to find it in singapore. Ohh.. and also i bought a jean skirt. *in love with my jeans*

We came back to sg on the 20th nite. Feel good abt my vacation but i've got lots things to do. (i'll list it out later >.<) Yj's laptop has some problems, and i accompany him to the coop to check it out. we went there for total of 4 times, and everything after settling his comp things, we went swimming at the pool. =D well i don't really know how to swim. im learning! and its improving. Thanks yj for teaching.. he is a harsh teacher.. T.T

30th Dec, its my birthday. Most simple birthday in this 3 yrs of study in singapore. no countdown.. no cakes..no presents and only a simple dinner on tat nite. on the 29th, we went swensen nearby for ice cream sundae =D simple but suffice. Yj was guilty for .. not being able give me something wonderful on tat day. Its ok.. it really was. He is broke.. coz he gotta get a new laptop, have to be more considerate.

Happy New Year. welcome 2009,it may not be a good yr. well, lets see what i can do. =/ a lot of jobs are piling up. Here's my to-do-list:

1. RESUME
2. CASE STUDY PREPARATION - readings, and survey
3. take a good pic
4. Bidding & module planning
5. clean my messy rooms
6. prepare for CNY.

Ewww.. tats a lot.. especially the first 2. *sigh* hard isn't? life has to goes on...